more than you ever wanted to know (updated 12/7/07)
100 things about me, in no particular order
- i stand 6'5" or so, i never
did anything with my height that mattered. except that Tracy wouldn’t give
me the time of day if i was shorter even tho she thinks her 4’8” is really
5’2”
- i have no siblings, as far as
i know
- i never knew my father
- at one time my hair colour
would change at least once a year. it used to be because the sun bleached
my dark hair blonde, then is was because i wanted it to be something other
than brown. I liked green or white. now I keep it very short to avoid
looking at the thinning area.
- i tend to use "u"s
where they are not needed, colour, armour, etc.
- i only use upper case when i
have to. this started when i stopped using an upper case "i" to
represent myself, i felt it was less pretentious.
- i have always been a horrible
speller, i am always worried about spelling something wrong. i love spell
check, i don't use it enough
- i was raised by my mother and
grandmother. one of my uncles tried to be a male role model for me, but as
more than half his kids were fairly screwed up i decided to go it alone.
- i've always felt like an
outsider in my mother's family. they're Fishers, i'm the only Davis. i've
always been envious of family type groups, whether they were related or
not.
- i "click" with so
few people i try very hard to hold on to the ones i do.
- i have friends and i have
acquaintances, my acquaintances are what other people call friends. my
friends are my family. i wish i knew they felt the same about me, but not
all of them can. at this moment i count 4 people in that group, 2.5 of
them are ex-girlfriends (i always have trouble characterizing one of them)
- only once in a great while
will words come to me freely, normally they are drawn with much effort and
little reward
- when i was younger, i was my
own best friend. i rarely needed anyone else. in recent years a friend
helped me see more of myself and those around me. as a result i spend much
of my time feeling alone, sometimes it hurts. but, i couldn't know what it
is like to see those around me and go back to how i was. i will deal with
the pain, because i know that there is pleasure out there.
- i am a firm believer in
"it is better to have loved and loss, than to never have loved at
all". i originally wrote that when all I could feel was the loss and
all i could see was the loneliness. sometimes it hurt so much i’d want to
cry out, but i won't go back to not caring. i cant.
- i very clearly remember
watching Flipper with my dog Sparkles when i was 3. i don't know if i ever
had a dog named Sparkles.
- the scariest nightmare i ever
had involved flying monkeys from the Wizard of Oz, complete with fezzes
- Amy, my first love, dumped me
because of an injury to my nose. i wore a bandage for a week (i think),
from something my mom did to me. more than likely banging my head on the
car, she'll deny it, but she's like that. i was in kindergarten at the
time. (btw. I’m mostly joking here)
- i seem to have a thing for
"Robin"s, at one time i could expect to hear from 4, this ran
into problems because not all of them knew about all of the others. as i
think only one of them might read this i hope she wasn't one of the ones i
was keeping "in the dark"
- i love to read, but i read
very slowly and once i start i hate to put the book down. i also have a
very hard time not finishing a book (or series) no matter how bad it is.
- i once had a ferret, an
ex-girlfriend left him with me when she moved back to California. i never
realized how much i missed him until i gave him up. i want to get another,
but right now i have my hands full with 2 doggies.
- i followed Anime America out
to the bay area, by the time i got here they had blown away.
- i cannot see ever living away
from the ocean again
- i've known "true
love" three times, lost them all. one gone for good (it would seem),
two are still friends. still looking for a fourth.
- i've had two serious
relationships and three (or maybe four) not so serious ones.
- i was brought up Lutheran,
because i was in their private school. the one thing i took away from
their teaching is that Catholics are evil.
- i do not recall ever being
asked a question that i would not answer.
- if you stay silent around me
long enough i will tell you everything about me, much more than you ever
wanted to know
- i have never been out on a
"blind" date
- i am afraid of drowning, i
sail when i can and i love the ocean
- i'm mildly claustrophobic
- i love tunnels, i tend to get
a little panicy when i'm in them. but, i will seek them out just the same
- i like to dance, but i'm very
uncomfortable with myself. i am working on this
- i can be earnest, but i'm
mostly misunderstood. a friend of mine has recently told me that people
don't understand me because i say what i mean and don't mean more than i
say. i say life is too short to pretend to be someone you are not.
- i can think of nothing so
pleasant as having a friend drop by unexpectedly
- i have a major weakness for
fresh bread
- i also have a major weakness
for a woman's smile, there is little that i can be asked to do that i
wouldn't
- my favorite colour is
somewhere in the green-blue spectrum, which is where i think i am colour
blind
- i can use glasses, though my
eyes are close enough that i can get by
- i enjoy walking in the rain,
if i am wearing a hat that can keep the rain off my face when i want it to
- i prefer cloudy days to clear
ones
- i have never not hiked
because of weather, i don't hike nearly enough. but, i need a partner to
hike with, it is not fun for me to go by myself.
- lighthouses and old
architecture draw me like a siren
- i have never seen a ghost,
but i will swear to my dying days that i saw Hitler outside of the
Imperial Palace in Las Vegas sometime in the late 80's early 90's. i was
looking at the Bonnie and Clyde car, i turned around and looked down (i
was standing on a raised platform to view the auto) in to Hitler's eyes.
he was wearing walking shorts and had on a Hawaiian shirt. i looked back
toward the car for a moment and when i turned back he was gone. i know it
was him because there wasn't enough time for him to have been lost in the
crowd, i think he ducked back in to his secret tunnel that led to the
heart of the Imperial Palace.
- i will not be satisfied with
the list when i am done (i guess not, as i'm back at it now)
- Dr Pepper has been my
favorite soft drink since i was 8, it is the only soda i can drink warm.
- i have a feeling i wont go to
sleep tonight until after i finish this list, i can be very obsessive
- i have no connection with my
name, i share it with no family. i want to change my name to Wintermute, i
ran across it while wandering thru a cemetery, if i ever figure out how to
sign it as fast as i sign my current name i'll change it
- twelve years ago i entered
the bonus round when i was thrown out of my convertible beetle at 85 mph.
i broke my back, but it was one of those rare cases where it was better to
be outside the vehicle than in. i used it as an excuse to take a new look
at my life and make some changes
- i do not expect to end my
life with the use of my legs (due to the accident), i made peace with this
twelve years ago
- my mind jumps tracks at odd
times, i do not try to figure out why
- my favorite dish was
swordfish prepared by Robin, she made it so much better than any i had
ever had. then Karen effortlessly surpassed her, it was fantastic
- a few years ago i found out
that i could drink champagne, up until then i always got sick
- i love music, all kinds from
Japanese bubble gum punk to classical to sea shanteys
- i enjoy singing, though i
have no talent
- one day i hope to be able to
play piano
- one day i hope to be able to speak
and read Japanese (far better than i do now)
- "i have no desire to
father children, don't think i ever will". turns out i was very wrong
about this one. seems i had never met the right woman, or maybe it was the
right kid. maybe i still haven't.
- travel by train cannot be
beat
- i recently discovered that i
am a wargamer that role-plays not a role-player that wargames
- i am easily distracted
- before i broke my back i had
a nearly photographic memory, now i miss it
- i never know when to stop
(true, this would be better as #101)
- i am not interested in most
sports, but i like to play some sports. though i rarely get the chance
- i am painfully shy
- i've always wanted to have a
huge house so i could offer space to anyone i knew that needed it, but big
enough so i could avoid them if i wanted
- i wish i cooked more
- butterscotch and oatmeal
cookies are the best
- i would rather be cold than
hot
- the quickest way to make me
angry is to tell me i am angry and not believe me when i say i'm not
- if i spend time around you,
it means i think you're special. i don't waste time on people i don't care
for
- while i try not to be
unnecessarily rude, neither do i go out of my way to be polite
- do not ask me what i think if
you do not want my honest opinion
- if you can not be honest with
yourself, how can you be honest with the world. it is a struggle to be
honest with myself
- sometimes i think all of my
thoughts are stolen from elsewhere, maybe i should just put quotes around
my life so i don't get in trouble for plagiarism
- speaking of elsewhere, one of
my favorite book concepts was Bordertown/Borderlands
- i've never secretly believed
i was an elf, but i wanted to
- in high school a guy who
liked my girlfriend wore sideburns, ever since then i haven't been able to
stand the look of them on me
- comfort over style, except
for when i'm playing dress up;)
- the hardest part of being
tall is seeing all the cool clothes you can't wear
- when i was younger i met
someone who was very much like me, only goofier. he was tall, about my
build, was use to being the "leader", an only child. there were
differences, many. among them he was two-faced and cheap. some of the
worst things that i can think of being thought of. which is one of the
reasons i don't mind picking up the tab when with friends, i guess i'm
always a little scared someone will think i'm like Chris.
- i'm clueless, it is very rare
for me to notice how someone feels. it is amazing that Gina put up with me
as long as she did
- i like my steak rare (or to
put it another way "i want to slap a Band-Aid on it and ride it
home") and my hamburger burnt (otherwise known as a hockey puck)
- Miyazaki is my anime god,
Only Yesterday is my all time favorite film (animated or not)
- i'm a Libra, sometimes with
good reason
- i like bows in hair (not mine)
and hats (sometimes mine)
- my favorite season is Fall, i
enjoy the promise of cold nights
- i have not seen snow fall
nearly enough to be sick of it
- despite what some people may
claim, i do not dislike mini-skirts, i just happen to like long flowy
skirts, blame Stevie Nicks
- i try to find the unfindable
for my friends, i'm not very good at it
- one of my favorite
expressions is "i'll burn that bridge when i come to it", not
sure where i picked it up
- Mochi is my precious (Honda
Helix).
- i tend to expect the worst in
people and the best in situations
- if i do not pay heed i will
tend towards being negative
- i have been told that my
neutral state looks like i'm mad, when really i'm fine or at least would
be if everyone left me alone ;)
- i enjoy aimlessly driving with
friends, but then i enjoy just about everything with friends
- i want to travel more before
i get much older
- for the longest time my only
real scar was a 3 to 4 inch one on my right breast where i caught a branch
when i fell from a tree (all two feet to the ground), now it is my
"zipper" down my back
- i don't drink coffee, but i
do enjoy tea. all types, green, black. though i'm not a huge fan of
flowers in my tea
- life may not have a reset
key, but every once in a while you get a second chance, i got mine twelve
years ago. i haven't been all that i can be yet, but i'm moving in that
direction. always moving.
- i strive to never give up,
never surrender. i don't think i have, not yet